I CAN DO THIS! i can get over him. just keep myself busy and with the help of my friends and my mom. I actually broke down today. In the shower...i went in my room crying and my mom came in there after i had gotten off the phone with stephen and i was still crying. i sat there for 30 min talking to her about what happened and all about prom and stuff like that. it was good. i needed it. i got out of the house with mal today. he called while i was gone running errands with my mom. twice i think. once he left a message. the other time he just hung up. i don't know if i should talk to him or not. my mom and mallory would say def. not...i just want to see what he wanted. i wrote him an e-mail though saying if he wanted to talk about anything other than our relationship and anything relating to it he can call me later after i get home from Baja and he gets home from work. So yeah. I'm actually getting excited about prom...even though i don't have a date at the moment. I got some boobs for my dress...it falls off me! but it won't be a lot to take it up...that's what the lady said...i want a corset or something like that...to hold in my tummy...even though its not much of one..its looks so much better w/o that little bit! OMG I CAN"T WAIT that dress is to die for. If i get to go with Stephen...hopefully things will have changed and we'll just be friends. but if i go with someone else hopefully they'll see that i'm DROP DEAD GORGEOUS...like that dress...i have a theme...for my ensemble...DRAMA..hehehe i'm getting fake eyelashes...fake boobs...and i'm going to have a neck corsage i think...if not i'm going to get an orchid for my wrist corsage...with a ribbon that matches my dress. i went to wal-mart and saw all these couples...i never noticed them before...i guess its b/c i'm alone. i also noticed all the guys checking me out....they even waved to me driving down the road. kinda strange but...i never noticed that either...i guess b/c i was so wrapped up in stephen and everythign that was going on there. well i'm going now. i've got 10 min to get to Baja! Bye for now! *MUAH* Laces