so yeah i was so excited that daric was coming. it didn't happen. he didn't come. i'm so upset and bummed out right now. i miss him so much and i just wanted to see him and cuddle with him and hug him. but he didn't feel well and the weather was aboslutely horrible and i feel so selfish for saying stuff about it that he could've come anyways. i mean what if something had happened to him on his way up here...i would've felt so bad. he wont' even answer his phone now for me to apologize for being so damn selfish. i realized after a while...after thinking things over. and I'm soo sorry. i don't control him i can't...and i won't. if he wants to go to clemson tomorrow i don't care. he's a grown man...he can do as he wishes. i just miss him terribly...he says its just going to be 2 weeks from the time we saw each other last when we see each other again but...holy cow there's going to be so much going on that weekend. he's going to want to spend time with his mom and be with his friends that are in town..and i can't take away from time with his mom...he absolutely adores her. i'm just being a selfish bitch right now. and i don't know how to apologize to him. :o( i'm going to finish my laundry. lacy *Please say honestly you won't give up on me*