the last time I wrote in this was 7 years ago. holy crap. I don't think I could ever be a full-time blogger again. At 32, I don't really feel like anyone would care to read my nonsense in the form of a blog. I tweet and Facebook enough nonsense at this point that I think people get the point. But in case you ever read me when I started this thing 16 years ago, thanks for reading and following me and reading comments. This is an amazing time capsule of my junior and senior years of high school as well as some of my freshman year of college. I'm glad it's here and happy with what it represents. As of now, I'm 32. I finished my degree at USC and am in my 4th year of teaching Chorus at Edisto High School. I'm still friends with Kayleigh, Chris, and Carolynne. I'm still weirdly introspective and I think maybe if I took the time to start blogging again, I'd write similarly to how I wrote back then. Maybe it would help me process my thoughts about my students and my job here. However, I think it's better if I keep talking to people about my feelings instead of hiding them in the internet. But it's good to know this place is still here if I ever need it because I have something I need to say. I love this place. I've learned so much from blogging on all the sites I've ever written on. Thanks for reading. I'm sure I'll write again within the next 7 years. Maybe.

I really do have to pee, but I also love that that is a mood choice on here now. I can't even begin to catch y'all up on the enormity that is the past almost three years since I last wrote in here. Just know I'm working at my third school in three years (ugh), going back to school in the fall for Music Education (yay), and am personally, emotionally, and spiritually happy and in love. :) That's all there is to know at this point.

SERIOUSLY. So many things had not happened yet. 1. Somehow, I passed student teaching and graduated. I spent the summer lazing about and trying to find a job. 2. I found one. I teach Spanish I and III at Ware Shoals High School, and I love it. Most of the time. When it isn't making me tired, which it often is. 3. I have a cute apartment, which is often messy thanks to the addition of my beautiful little kitten, Kiley. She is probably terrorizing some furniture as we speak. Silly kitty. At least she's litterbox trained and actually likes me, unless I'm punishing her for doing something she knows she's not supposed to do. She gets mad and runs away from me for a few minutes but she always comes back. It's nice to have a cat that walks towards you and not away from you when you come up to it. <3 I love her. She'll always be my oldest. :) Hopefully in a couple of years I'll move to a place where I can get her a friend to bat around instead of a mini-tennis ball and a water bottle lid. Kiley = teh princess and she knows it. I mean, look how much airtime she got in this post over my JOB. 4. Family is okay. My mom went a little crazy over the summer and also got really sick, so I was kind of anxious to get away from her, but I think things are okay for now. She was mad at me for getting the cat but I think she's kind over it. 5. My children need to get watches. They ask me what time it is every two or three minutes.

This thing is incredible. So many things had not happened yet. 1. I went to Mexico. It was the most amazing time of my life. 2. I dated a guy named Wayne. He broke my heart. It took a long time to hear. 3. 2007 sucked. End of story. 4. I'm student teaching at Greenwood High School. I teach Spanish I and II. 5. I graduate in May. I'm looking for an apartment with Chris and Kayleigh to move into after that. 6. I turn 22 on TUESDAY. 7. Life is generally good.

Things. --Still working at CSD. Been there almost 7 months. --School is good --Still working on that Mexico trip. Wanna help?

Wow. Five months. --Working at CSD as a relay operator the deaf --Got the hell out of dodge at Beezers --Sophomore at Lander --Mexico! May 14-June 24, $3900, wanna help?

--finished freshman year --3.2 --Job at Beezer's --2 traffic tickets --Unity Ball rocked --In major debt --Mostly happy

I was so lame a year ago. I'm just saying. I know, it's weird for me to writing in here so soon again, but I figured I should. I haven't kept up with this like I should. Basically, I have been inside a little shell this whole semester. Chris and Kayleigh's relationship was picking up so well, I didn't want to intrude on it. I was never honest about it, which kind of hurt Kayleigh's feelings. I understand that, but I felt like if I had been honest, that would have upset her, too. So I guess I just chose the easier option. So, through January and February, I mostly kept to myself, sitting in my room, visiting the nurses for our weekly TV shows, hanging out with LKB, and mostly avoiding other people. I didn't like myself. I don't know why that was. But for a while there, I didn't like myself. My grades slipped because I spent a lot of time sleeping. I missed a few classes. I've spent the month of March picking up that slack. I regret it more than I can explain, but I'm working as hard as possible. But now, it's April. March was good. It contained my birthday and a few pleasant surprises, plus the first day of spring. It's been warm enough to wear shorts and flipflops, and that makes me really happy. I like spring. My nose gets all stuffy and I get drainage but I like spring. I just can't believe that this time last year, I was looking forward to a chorus trip and finishing up my senior year of high school. Now, I'm a freshman in college and starting over. I guess that's what I did when I came to college. I started over, and I realized I didn't do it quite right, and now I'm fixing it. I said this a long time ago in another journal I keep, that I pay more attention to. I keep my private thoughts there; "Someone tells you that they think you're the strongest person they know. But are you? Maybe you are. You've done things you aren't proud of. You don't like yourself so much at the moment. You feel alone. Defeated. Useless. But then one day you decide to pay attention to the Biology lecture on mitosis and you realize if you can pay attention to that, you can fix the broken things in your life. Ignore temptations. Pray. Study. One day at a time, one piece at time, you can glue your broken and shattered life back together. It's time to start fixing things." I wrote that entry nearly a little over a month ago. And I am well on that path. And it is wonderful.

I'm 19 now. Things are mostly good. Sorry I don't have more to say here.

Wow, it's been awhile. Nothing particularly interesting or newsworthy going on. Just going to school and all that jazzoidness. I like coming home for the weekend. I get to see my family and I sometimes have opportunities to see the people I went to high school with. I have a cold. It's not such a good time. 127=64=32=16=8=4=2=1 (for my reference)

Just got back from a weekend at home. It was good, got a lot of much needed rest, saw Nikki, which I needed to do. We were supposed to have an ice storm. Well, that turned out to be a bunch of crap, didn't it? What a joke. So I've gotten really obsessed with this nun music because it's sooooo pretty. I haven't been spending a lot of time out lately. I kind of withdraw in the winter and stay put. Also because Chris and Kayleigh seem to care more about spending time with each other than they do with anyone else. I still go see the Nurses and LKB a lot, though. And I hang out with Chris & Kayleigh sometimes when we all feel like it. It's been a good semester so far overall, though. So it's cool.

So, since this entry I have done a few things. 1. Was able to get on the internet in Winston-Salem. I enjoyed a relatively drama-free trip up there. Purchased many movies on a $50 gift card from my uncle. I love my mommy because she let me pick my own jeans that hopefully look better on me. And, I'm not fat enough for big and tall which makes me feel REALLY good about myself. They had a size 56, I was freaking out. 2. Worked a lot. Particularly at 6:30 in the morning. And I hated it. Plus, Kim and I got the Ms. Karen hate ball rolling. 3. Had New Year's Eve at Robbie's house with Mattin, Justin, Georgia, Chris, and Robbie. Cameos by Kelsey and Alana. It was good times, plus I got to improve my DDR skills. 4. Went back to Lander and cleaned my room for Steven, who ended up not moving in. He and JR moved into a bigger room in Coleman. Who moves TO Coleman. Coleman is not a place you go to, it's a place you end up. 5. I made the Honor Roll. W00t. Okay, enough for now.

Christmas Eve service at church was great. I got teary as usual during the carol sing. Especially when my mom stopped to hug baby Lana's mom because Lana has survived another Christmas. Um...let's see. After that, we went to some family friends' house for a BBQ dinner with all the good stuff. And then we were caroling. Dude, caroling in four-part harmony is the best kind of caroling. Even if it was unbalanced...3 sopranos, 1 alto, 2 tenors, and 3 basses. Hahaha. Anyway, home and then PRESENTS! I got Harry Potter 5 in Spanish, Harry Potter 3 in English (paperback--the collection is officially complete!), Shrek 2 on DVD, and gift cards to Belks and Dillards. Had a nice conversation with Justin. I miss that fool. Then I went to bed. Christmas morning was nice. It wasn't very formal, everybody just got up and looked at their stuff when they felt like it. I got an mp3 player (eeee!), cables for my digital camera so I can take pictures and upload them. I sort of lost my desire to take pictures when the USB cord broke last time. I will be taking much better care of this one. Got some cute PJ pants, a JumpDrive, and some little odds and ends. Oh, and an ass of batteries. Anyway, we went to my great-aunt Louise's house for lunch. That always makes me miss my grandmother because she and her sisters look and act so much alike. Called Kayleigh to tell her Merry Christmas. I miss her too. Bought hair dye (I can't use it yet because my parents don't want me to be "discussed" on this trip) and hung out with Kim and James for a little while. They're freakin' getting married in August. Winston-Salem today. Mrg. It's very icy and cold outside and while I don't want to go, I DO want to go. I don't know why. I think I just want to have a road trip. Whatever. It didn't show. I was right and the weathermen were wrong.

Hahaha, I sang a high A-flat (for women) just now. I am still the best first soprano they've never had. Just kidding. So the semester was definitely over, and it was way too much drama for me. But my group of friends at Lander will never be quite the same, but I think it's for the best. As far as academic performance, I got a 3.4 (Chris got a 3.8, Kayleigh got a 3.3, and Carolynne got a 4.0) GPA and I didn't get voted off so oops upside your head. I can't believe people were skeptical of whether or not I would do well away from home. I have done fine, and I have been happy this entire semester. I like being independent. Mostly. Daniel was a good roommate, but he's all head-em-up and moved out now because he wants to live with one of his brothers, so now JR's cousin Steven is moving in to be my roommate. Weird. Let's see...what else? I don't know. I went to work today, and it was alright. I got to watch most of Shrek 2, which is probably my other favorite movie. Love Actually, Titanic, and Shrek 2 are my favorite movies, in that order. It's almost Christmas. Again. This will be my third Christmas with a SitDiary. I really should write here more.

That went well. In the midst of exams. Government sucked, English was okay, I have a B in the class, Psych I'm not taking, and Spanish will be fine. That's all.

Tonight is the first University Singers concert. I'm pretty nervous. Currently in Government. Pretty okay with the class now. My analytic outline is coming along slowly but surely. I hope to pull a C in here. Psychology is after this. I'll get a B in here with almost no trouble. Carolynne has an A. A HIGH A. She probably has the highest grade in the class because she is too silly. Spanish is easy. I even understand subjunctive now. English. Eh. B. Whatever. We've been watching Fatal Attraction. "Have you ever done it in an elevator?" Ew! No! Anyway, I'm out. Wish me luck on the concert.

My government professor totally just said smut. Yes. Anyway, I am in Government class being a heathen student. It's boring and I never pay attention anyway even though I probably ought to. Things are going well. I'm a bit ready for Thanksgiving because everybody seems to be a bit on edge. Kayleigh and I have had a few little spats this week. I don't like us to argue at all. Life goes on. Turkey day! Which means I get to eat my mom's good food and stuff. I remember in high school when I would always know what I was doing months in advance. I don't know what right now. And I like it.

I have not written in a long time. Been to Augusta again since we last spoke. I have made many sojourns this weekend, and they have all been fun. Justin drove to Augusta, Kayleigh drove to Rock Hill, and I drove to Belton. I voted. Yes, I voted for John Kerry. No, I am not ashamed that I did that. Yes, I'm sorry he lost. No, I am not moving to Canada. Yes, I am a Democrat. Yes, I am tired of Bush. Halle Berry is on my television. Hot. Getting into crunch time, I guess. Money is tight. Kind of scary. Visited the high school over Fall Break. I miss Catherine and Laura. What else? I guess that's all. Ooh, The Surreal Life is going off. I never watched that show religiously but if it was on I would always watch. They should have Kimberly Caldwell on next time. Or Nikki McKibbin. Where IS she?

I went to Augusta on Saturday. It was a good day for Justin, Kayleigh, me to to just spend some good quality time together. Downtown Augusta is awesome. The only thing it was missing was a beach. We wandered down Main Street and visited the Democratic headquarters, and ate lunch at Nacho Mama. Yeah. I recommend the Daddy Nachos with Shrimp to anybody who ever goes there. Then we walked along the bridge at the Edgefield County Sewer Treatment Plant. I tried to make it be a romantic place to have a picnic. Failed. Miserably. I mean, it's a SEWER plant. Come on. Anyway, I just got out of Spanish and I'm trying to dump al the preterite vs. imperfect rules out of the front of my head because I don't want to spend all day thinking about it. *dies* The joys of being a Spanish major. *conjugates some more verbs and listens to Hispanic music in his little corner because they like him there.

I had traffic court today. Only had to pay 128.75. This was good. Spanish--going well. I hope to maintain an A average, since my grades in there have been 92, 95, 92. Woo. Government--I don't wish to discuss it. But I will. It sucks. And we have a midterm on Tuesday and we're all going to fail. Psychology: I have a C. 'Nuff said. English--Going fine. Good grades 'n stuff. Friends are good. I'll write more when there's more.