Okay..Ive chosen to stay....I dont know why..but I know for a fact if I see chris..Im going to cry..there's no doubts..I cant even think about him without crying..people say you get over it in time..its gotten worse... I remember every single memory of when I was truely happy with him...every single last one... I cant get them out..as much as I try...I remember the look in his eyes...everything....and..I had to let him go.. I want to die. so badly..I had chosen to hang myself before school started...but I changed my mind...my friends apparently need me... at least a few of them...Im Hoodie less...for good...I got tired of having a thick cloud of cat hair following me everywhere...so now my clothing is optional...instead of just plane day by day....I was hoping I could surpass seeing chris..but he rides my bus..and he goes to the same places in the morning..theres no way I cant not see him...so..all who go to my school....look out...I warn you..it will feel the worst ever...