..This songs really pretty.. I dedicated it to Kris.. Since Ive known him for four years.. and he's really important to me and all.. and I love him so much. Even though Ive never met him.. The Acoustic Song When I see your smile tears roll down my face I can't replace. And now that I'm strong I have figured out how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul, and I know ill find deep inside me, I can be the one. I will never let you fall I'll stand up for you forever ill be there for you through it all, even if saving you sends me to heaven. Seasons are changing and waves are crashing and stars are falling all for us days grow longer and nights grow shorter I can show you I'll be the one. I will never let you fall I'll stand up for you forever. I'll be there for you through it all, even if saving you sends me to heaven. Cause you're my you're my my true love my whole heart please don't throw that away. Cause I'm here, for you please don't walk away and please tell me you'll stay, stay... Use me as you will pull my strings just for a thrill and I know ill be okay though my skies are turning gray. I will never let you fall I'll stand up for you forever I'll be there for you through it all even if saving you sends me to heaven. (repeat) _______________________________________ anyway.. I cried.. In the shower.. Just sat there in the tub. Plugged the drain, and Turned on the shower, letting it hit me in the face.. for a good Four hours.. And Just cried. The Tub almost over flowed cause I wasnt even paying attention.. I felt so horrible Still slightly do.. but less than I did. Cause when I got back to the computer, My friend Megan who lives in Georgia (not to be confused with the Megan in Interlachen).. Sent me a Whole Ten Minute Queer as Folk Thing, Adding songs in, One was Like a Virgin, My Song "The Acoustic song"..well..its not really my song, but its my favourite song.. and a Song by Dashboard Confessionals.. The First Scene, Played Like a Virgin, where this seventeen year old boy was in love with this older guy (not too older I think)..and they were in bed, naked, and he looses his virginity.. Second Scene, played The Acoustic song, And the boy was at his prom, when the older guy walks in. grabs his hand, and starts dancing with him.. (Already I was depressed and Just got over crying.. so I started crying again..) Then it lead to the Third Scene Where the boy was laying in bed, woke up, looked around, and started talking to the older guy.. apparently from what megan says the boy Had got into an accident and forgot about the dance and everything.. and I guess The older guy had to gain his trust again?.. but The boy was speaking so close to him, and they kept talking while the Dashboard confessionals song played..and then they kissed.. The older guy leaned back.. and they made love.. God I hate those things.. I cried so Much that I cant cry anymore... havent cried like this in forever.. and I cant Even tell you why I did.. without bursting out again.. so I wont. Ima go.. Good Night -Matti