Crying Torments the Night Sky.. As I Laid there ready to die.. Forgotten, Lost. Uncontrolled. Passed away from my own Blow... Im Tired of Life..ive probably said it before. but its true. Im Just tired of it. I feel Like I can Lay down and Cease to exist. *sighs*. I dun have anything really to say Sylvia is okay, That makes me really happy.. On the inside. I dunno how to express things today. I Met a guy.. He was at my brother zach's friends house....I never talked to him. I wont see him again anyway. Im tired of typing.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I didnt go to sleep, I was tired..I Just..didnt go to sleep. Whenever I read somthing I wrote.. It feels like I didnt have any emotion into it whatsoever. I read it. And it seems to Follow through my head, In One tone of voice. It doesnt change, It doesnt sound Interesting. Just.. Read it that way. You Will Comprehend. School Starts today for me. I Forgot when. Around Eight?..I Dunno. I Just know that I have to call my classes. This shall Amuse me. I want to be back down in Interlachen, There's More Fun down there, I Never get to see my friends here In Jacksonville. Cause they never come to pick me up and take me somewhere... I Need A Life. I Think I Might give up On Devin, Ive Called Him Twice, And that was the day me and Sylvia Went to the movies, He was suppose to tag along.. But so was Davy, Her boyfriend, And Jesse. but they chose not to also... I dont even know if he likes me... He's Apparently Had one guy relationship.. Lucky asshole. Mom Hit a Possum on the way up. I was upset with her..Still am, Will always for a while.. And Not Just because of the Possum. She complains...Constantly, I Try to ignore it. But the bitch doesnt know the Meaning Of Quiet. "I have to pay the electric bill In Interlachen, I Have to Pay the Phone bill In Both Interlachen and Jacksonville, I Have to Pay Mr. Hamock (Land Lord)..We Might Get Evicted, Brad wont shut up about the dirty house In Interlachen, Dale wont shut up about how Im Supposively Fucking Brad, Zach is Starting to become Insecure again..He was all excited about going to Interlachen High, then Brad Ruined it by yelling at him, and now he's afraid, And I have to baby him"... See what I have to listen to?...Im Going to Lodge a Pencil in her throat, then the last fucking thing I'll Hear is Her Choking On her own blood... Im Tired of it, She babies zach "I Love you Zach!...Im Trying to help you!"..what do I get?!..Nothing for Christmas, Sent away for New years, And Perhaps Nothing again for my birthday... All I Am Is Some Fucking thing she Complains at because Im There. Then She Has the right to complain to me about me being a fucking ass hole, when all I want to do is Live My Fucked Up Life in Piece without having to hear her bull shit.. Its her fault She's Cheating On Brad with Dale, its Her fault she's bought Two Houses, Its Her Fault She's Fucked it all Up... I want to be Emancipated, and get the hell out of this. it Annoys me....But for now..The Silent Treatment shall do. Since Well.. Im too "Important"..Heh.. She Just needs me for Her Slavery...When I Ignore and Dont answer. She's bound to eventually Notice I dont plan to Respond for a Long ass while.. I Hope the Possum's Okay..She was driving Horribly Anyway. I was suppose to drive. "Oh No!..You cant drive! I need to get to Jacksonville In a Hurry Cause Zach Kept Me so Long with his Complaining about not wanting to start real school and Brad Complaining about the house"... Im Keeping that pencil ready. Mikie said he wanted to be put into my Diary..Here you go. Love You Mikie Im tired, I Have so much non-sense going on in my head. Most of it I repeat to the point Im sick of it. Someone said somthing Yesterday about perfect Lives... I replied, "The Perfect Life is one you dont have, because if you did have it, It wouldnt seem so perfect anymore, and you would be wanting somthing Diffrent, which would be The Diffrent Perfection that you would Long for".. If You understood that..give yourself a pat on the shoulder.. Then I said My Perfection is.. Two guys laying in bed together kissing each other... If You Understood my situation..give yourself one more pat on the shoulder. Stupid Bitch Just got up.. I Hate her... Im ending it here. My Eyes Hurt. and I cant go back to sleep..Not cause I cant, because..I cant allow myself to....School. -my pain is your pleasure-