Ugh..I never got to go on the second date with blake.. which makes me really really depressed.. I cried last night because of it, because I really really wanted to see him, and yet I couldnt, because mom made me go with my brother zach to tallahassee to visit my brother jeremy, his boyfriend tom, and their friend Jarrod (which we are staying at).. I really really miss blake, And want to talk to him so badly, yet I cant because Im not going to be home until tomorrow Afternoon/evening, I dont even know when Blake will have his next break off of work and when I can see him again, Although I REALLY want to :(.. Even cut myself from it.. which I bet he'll see... God..I hate that Im going to end up crying a storm in august when I have to leave him..thats if Drama doesnt happen and I end up crying any earlier.. Laptops are so complicated to understand. I only have approximately thirty minutes here on the computer, cause jarrod really wants to go to bed soon. and yeah.. :( well I wont be able to write that next chapter so soon, so Hold up people. .. On a Lighter Note.. FSU is Huge, we live right on campus, In the Fall, there will be thirty Thousand students, Thats.. A New Friend every day. which will be awesome meeting new people.. but .. I still want my blake :(.. Jeremy's getting me a fake Campus ID so I can go to the local shit for free at any time I prefered, and he's Locking me down, Stricked rules. which is going to suck, but I will have to abide by them.. I wonder how I'll Tie blake into this..cause I REALLY Need him. I grow So Attached so easily.. Anyway.. dunno what else to say. except I miss blake.. :( -Matti