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by malewitch0
Listening to: nothing..
Feeling: dead
I dont even exist to him anymore.. Ive been Trying to call him. and he either doesnt answer, or he makes it breif. Im not even on his top eight anymore.. Instead Kelly Is.. And I give up.. I competely Give up.. he forgot about me.. I guess Im no longer important.. at least matts asleep, I know He wont hear me crying.. HE EVEN TOOK OFF MY FUCKING FLOWER... I give up.. no one understands how much this hurts.. No one.. I just want to be held close right now, I dont even care who its by.. I just hurt so goddamn much and no one wills to comfort. I seriously want to die.. I just want to die... ...why does this happen to me... -Matti
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aw dude i'm srry...
yea the pain will be there for a while. but just see, it'll get better...
it takes a while for the pain to go away but after a while it starts to heal on its own...bit by bit..

but i hope you get better about this...

oh srry if this sounds gay/cheezy...but just letting you know

if i read your diary then that means you exist to me whether i know you or not...

l8er
mattie call me its joey on this number tonight.....478 956 3665
[Anonymous]
You'll find someone better, these feelings will pass (:

I'll add you on my vampirefreaks (:
I would tell you that it's all going to be better soon, and all that annoyingly repetitive jazz but I'm sure you've heard that from everyone else. And I care about you far too much to hand you that crapola. But if you ever need anyone to talk to, ever... I'm here. You can call me any time. It will get better, though. It might not seem like it... But it will. (even if I have to bust some kneecaps)... Just kidding... or am I...? I love you muchly!