so im tired, i only got 6 hours of sleep. but we went to a dance. and of course i danced... cole showed up i tried ignoring but then he came up and talked to me. then spit water in my ear... ugh asshole.. then met a 20 year old josh that was like trying to make out with me and kept asking if i had ciggies for him but i was like no. he was mighty fine. then he was like rubbing my back and then he was like how old are you and i said 14 and he laughed and smiled and said you know that saying.. 15 gives you 30. i wonder what 14 would do and i just laughed and said your the pervert talking like that so we just kept talking and he was wasssted. insanely. so yah... chris is nasty weird gross. he was like humping us as we were dancing i think i ditched him like 20 times.. the band was cool. they didnt just play country they played like 2 songs country and the rest was old rock. a lot of willmar people were there like .. jonny bizz. haha wow .. he is pretty cool. i took my horse about 2 miles 2 days ago. it was pretty nice except when we would run and i would want him to stop he kept throwing his head down . so i dont know. i will have to work with him a little more probably. so ya after dance i went to a bon fire.. dan walked off to have sex with kerstin and i sat there next to eric playing the nervous game and telling him ally wanted to have a party in his pants. hah it was pretty cool and i kept raiding kates fridge with ally and stealing her peaches. . then meagan ally and i went home and went to the clara city pool at 4 am... then we swam for like a half an hour and then i got out and heard a car and looked and there were people yelling something about the pool so we totally ran home because like when we were just going to the house the people were yelling again.. weird.. o m gsh i told mr winter that it wasnt my fault at the dance and he like totally said he was sorry for everything and crap .. i just think that when he is drunk he gets a tad bit nicer. so it gottttta lotta stress off my back. i just found out that my mom has another boyfriend. i dont think she was ever going to tell us she just went to his house all the time and he has like never came here for anything im pretty ssure she doesnt want me to like be mean to him. which i will cause he looks like jessie except he is skinny so that makes a difference... a biiiig one. but . i usually dont like any of my moms boyfriends so i guess i will just be mean to him. he is a drunk anyway. i really want to see world trade center and since its going to be the 5th year anniversary. i think i will put up a poem that i found for it. I miss you tonyy.... The crows flew toward the waterfall knowing they would drown; their silent shadows rippled on the ground. And though a blue sky held them and though the hills were green their minds were on a prize that neither they nor any other bird had ever seen. They saw their faces closing but never meant to sing they only left a silhouette of wings that lingered briefly there before the broken water fell and crashed down on the granite so hard the dark clear water shook in every well. The river boiled in protest and stumbled on its bed, every field beside it stained with red. And every thirst it tried to cool it slickened into flame to show that from that moment no ancient spell that river knew could work the same. The water flowed on raging until it found the tide and fouled the currents dolphin used to ride. And through the shoal of minnows there a dark shape rushes now too fast for any shark to swim the eastward flying shadow cast by one more crow.