i wonder how long it will be till i have something happy to write in here.. my mom is moving in another 21 year old. i cant live at my dads i just cant . and my mom doesnt trust me there. i just sit here sometimes and think about packing my stuff. packing some dog food and leaving. and go stay at ambers. id rather just live there. i would be happier and actually do ok in school. my mom cant spend time with me not even notice me. my dad cant speak without putting me down. sam. she just isnt here anymore. im here alone. and i dont like that feeling anymore. i desperatly try to be with someone constantly cause im afraid my boredom might hurt me some day. im starting to get annoyed by my family a lot, especially my mom. i feel like just punching her sometimes. and im scared that one day that will happen also. special. You think you're special You do I can see it in your eyes I can see it when you laugh at me Look down on me And walk around on me Just one more fight About your leadership And I will straight up Leave your shit Cause I've had enough of this And now I'm pissed This time I'm a let it all come out This time I'm a stand up and shout I'm a do things my way It's my way My way or the highway Just one more fight About a lot of things And I will give up everything To be on my own again Free again Some day you'll see things my way Cause you never know No ya never know When you're gonna go Just one more fight And I'll be history Yes I will straight up Leave your shit And you'll be the one who's left Missing me