so jason starts in about the crisis center. my mom does. am i just so depressed looking.. do i actually just want to kill myself. is it better for me to leave and be locked there. why is everything wrong about me. why cant something be wrong about them. shes making me be this way. does my dad actually feel better by putting me down . calling me a failure. am i? am i possibly that bad. why is it that where ever i live. im going to be depressed im still going to be this way. im still going to hate everything. im still going to hide myself from people. im still going to sit in my room from 4 to whenever i fall asleep. noone takes the time to actually sit down and talk to me. and if i say something to my mom. or my dad. im controlling there lives. im making them worse. its not there fault.its mine. its always been mine. i dont love anyone. only sam. yet she cant see how its impossible to live at dads.and its no use for talking to him. he wont understand. i dont like it when people bring the whole living at dads thing. . . i know just send me to the crisis center.send the only problem in this family away.do it,and when im out.you wont ever see me again. aint no sunshine when shes gone Its not warm when she goes away aint no sunshine when shes gone and shes always gone to long anytime she goes away