scotti is gone for four months ... we were fighting for like 2 weeks and not talking and now i never got to say bye...? i feel like four months is so far away like i will be somewhere else... someone different, and i wont get to say anything to him when he is back. im afraid of having to actually go somewhere over this whole court thing... i dont want to go anywhere.. i almost want to open the clouds and lay down within them and zip it up. justletgo start over. meet someone to block you from repeating in my head. you left too soon.