gosh this day will never end, its all rainy and cold outside and its like uggg.... so ya last night was really weird for me and him, he just like kissed me and he has a girlfriend, i totally forgot that part lol. i dont know it feels like when ever i am away from him i want him really bad, but when ever he is around me its like do i realy want this??? i dont know if that makes sense or not but ya. things are so confusing in life. like you never know what people really feel about you untill they show it. i just wish it could be eaisier. tomorrow its suppose to snow!!!! yaya i wonder if we are going to get off school, i dout it but o well you can always hope for it. being alone for the hoildays is the hardest part of it all. i dont know it seems like everyone know has ethire a girlfriend or a boyfirend and i am left behind being the third wheel, but i think that is how it is going to be for a while. but i just have to deal with it and go on with my life being happy with what i have. i am blessed with many things, and i know i take them for granted a lot of the times but i dont know i just i wish i had someone in my life that i could share it with..............