ya well i didnt think my new years would turn out that way. i am never doing that again, and im not joking, i thought to myself it is so stupid. i really wish i could have seen kelsey and brian, i really missed them, it wasent the same. and she is dissapointed, but then again i am dissapointed in my self so i see why she is. but im sorry i truly am, i know everybody is like mad at me for the stupid things i do, but i take compleat responsiblty. sammy thank you for helping me last night i really dont know what i would do with out you i love you so much!!!!!!! im sorry i really dont want to go to go back to school, it doesnt even feel like we had a break. i hope this year was better then last year, and i think it is going to be, i have a good feeling. i hope i see him.