i hate this i really do hate this. there is nobody left, everyday something new and exciting happens for them, everything, i wish my life could be that exciting, i really do. i wish i could tell all of them what i am hiding i really do i just dont know how to say it, i dont know how to let it out, i guess i never will, not like they would care or anything i just need to tell someone, anyone. my life changed that day and i will never get it back, i wonder what it would have been like, maybe better than this life, maybe not, i just hope that it gets better, cause i really can not take all the pressure anymore.