today was such a good day! me, kelsey, and becca were all hanging out like we used too, it was so much fun!!! we so have to do that more often!!!!! i love you guys!!!!!!!! tonihgt was so weird, it was seriously like old times, and i liked it. i still like him. tonight it was more calm then how it used to be, like we were rushed or uncomfortable. i like how things are right now, and i think it will get better. but i am still waiting for him. i miss him so much, i just wish i could see him again, he seriously doesnt know how much i love him, but what hurt me the most is when he said that he loves lauren as much as i love him and that how it always will be. that seriously broke my heart. but im waiting..............