im going to make some changes in my life, good ones. i need to be more of a christian, and really look at the mistakes that i have made and try to think how i can over come that. ive hurt so many people in the past year, when i think about it it makes me sick. i sorry everyone for all the mean things i have said or i have ever done to you. and thank you sammy, kelsey, and becca for always being there for me, i really dont know what i would have done without you guys. but it seems like when ever i try to change things in my life it always seems that i always go back to what i have already been doing. its driving me insane that i cant remeber anything! i dont know what to think. all i can say is there is not going to be another episoed like that again. NEVER. today was a really bad day, when my dad droped me off, him and my mom started talking, opps not talking yelling, and it was horrible like my whole family were yelling and throwing things, and my little step- ssiter was crying and it was all a mess. i had to get out of there, so i did, and i took her with me. im so sick of it! i cant stand it! i seriously dont know what to do anymore. i guess just sit back and not say anything, since that is what im best at. but ya life goes on, and i cant do anything about it, we have to go back to school tomorrow, it sucks so bad, and i dont know what to do about the variety show, me and kelsey havent even finshed it!!! ahhhhh we got to get workin on that! try outs are in 8 days!!!!