this weekend was so weird, but fun at the same time. i dont know why i was with him, and i dont know why he came back, but he did, does that mean something? i wonder. but anyways tofer threw up all over the window and it got all over me an kelsey, it was really gross but funny at the same time, then we did this passing out thing, it is really but and weird, like when you wake up you have like no idea where you are, lol. it felt like i was doing something wrong, maybe i was, but i know they think i did something but i didnt, for a first. i guess its just the fact that we had a past and everyone knew about it, and i think that everyone still thinks we still go together. i dont like it. i went to go play bingo last night, it was actually pretty fun and excitng,lol it was so cute, like all these cute little old ladies sitting in there, lol i could see myself old and going there like everyday. lol things are so weird now, i dont know what to do, sometimes its just so complicated! i got this really great job! i only have to work three hours a day and i make suck good money!! i really need it, cause i need to start saving up for a car, cause i want to buy it, i dont want my parents to buy it, cause i want to have something that is my own. gosh sometimes its soooo freakin hard, cause you want something but you know in like a couple of days its just going to be gone out of your life for a couple of months and then it will come back in again. i just wish it would stay!!!! stay with me forever!!!!!! i want it sooo bad but i know i cant have it,,, ahhhhh........... lol