i really cant do this anymore, people want me to be this person that isnt afriad of anytihng, and im not that person, it takes time to over come those things that your scared of, and for me it is taking longer, i dont know why maybe because i am dealing with the situation in my life and in my family. i am scared to death to let someone have me, cause i know how it feel to get your heart taken away. and people think they have it so hard right now, and its pissing me off cause they DONT! i really wanted him but i cant have him anymore, you have him now. but then again what do i want? i really dont know anymore, gosh everything is so confusing, i just wish someone would understand what i am going through. but i know they dont understand. i just wish people wouldnt compare me to things im not.