havent been writing much. but i havent lost my thoughts thou they have been building up and one thought just keeps reapering over and over again and i just want it to disaper into the sunset never to return and im thinking about giving up on him i never give up on anyone but he just seems like he dosent really care about me anymore its quite sad but i just ill just have to stop talking to him just to get over him. he will find someone better they all do. i lost my gift of writing for the time being im all draned out. squeezed dry like and orange or water that has been siting out side the sun to long i have advapoating into the clouds and i will return when they no longer can hold me. january can wait. that will be the best time of my life i can all ready tell. amanda<3 your the greatist. -lovers and fellow encounters i dance for thee