me not writing in here is crazy talk i just cant seem to not do it. yes yes i said that im not going it but at is time it looks like it was a lie i just didnt lie to you i lied to myself the worse lieing anyone can ever do if you ask me.well some of you i think would be quite happy im sticking it out which is good i think i would miss you guys the most if i even really did leave this forever but it looks like that will never happen i dont know online journal just have such an impacked on people these day and the internet for the matter it a deseses that gets has all antell you really get a life and as it must look i dont have one so in the mean while i will just make i life for myself on line i live on here i mind as well pack up my things now and bulid a machine and will implant myself in this computer well not this computer because i works like crap i want to be in someone elses so i can snop around hey that would be fun and entertaing if i do say so myself. well i shall return and the next one is def going to be better. im going to work on my writeing my uneducated writeing. p.s nick i think im sticking it out more for you. i dont know you make me think and that thinking leads for inspiration so thank you oh no there goes tokyo go go god- zilla