at this moment i need to take time and dig inside myself with a spoon to find out what is inside. ill dig up the tissue and exsamine its streachyness.put it to its limit and find oh far it will go for somthing. i want to find out how much i can bleed and how long it will take to hurt.i want to get inside my own head with a scalper are study tell it hurts. i want to find myself inside myself past the skin and blood past the inner walls of my heart. beat it around a little. then i will find out what it take to really breath and find myself in is world of hurt,hate,love,lust,and most of all ones persons inner self.this world was made to make me fall and falling is just want i want because without falling there is no tring or flying what goes down must go up. why do people think its all in the layout cant i mean just a little more.