tonight was a goodnight all though it did have its down well one that im really pissed about it that is i tried a cig yes i smoked a non fillter cig im ashamed of myself you have no idea i dont know what i was thinking well yes that is a lie i do know what i was thinking and i never think that way but i did tonight. i like going to the grind coffee place it has a great eviroment the people there are great lots of people smoke one reason i did what i did and it was stupied of me i never do stuff because others do it i dong know what was wrong with myself im very disapoint and im never going to let myself go ever again. well going to the good part of this night is the amazing people i hanged out tonight i hanged out with kate place i havent seen her sence she finshed high school last year. she has change for the good. i hope she uses my phone number and calls me sometime i meanted that i wanted to hang out sometime. i cant stop think about william all day thats all i did. i love him so much. i just want to let that out again because i seem to bring that up alot. well it about time for me to get off sence i do have a mother that i live with and she did say i have to get off even if i pay for this computer i shall write more later if i feel up to it.