so alot has happen im still loveing teddy bear. i will always love him hes so beautiful in more ways then one. and i love how he trys so hard to make me happy but at the same time i wish he didnt put himself down and think he did something wrong when he didnt and the hole thing of him and amanda i will not really go into it doesnt bother me that he didnt tell me he knew amanda befor and that other stuff he told me that i promise not to tell anyone else. he was just tring to start new i would do the same thing so i cant really hate him for it and i dont. i know amanda is upset with him and im confused into what i sould do about it. i dont what to stop talking to him i love him so much and i dont what to lose amanda the greatist friend and i only true friend i have ever had in my life. im confused i dont know what to really think are do but love them both right know because they both are a really big part in my life. but i can really figure anything out tell i talk to amanda and see how she feels about all this stuff. i know she is proply really mad at teddy bear i dont know what to do about but i hope that i know her and know that she will not have me chose it that does happen i will have to chose her of course but i will hurt also because i love teddy so much but not as much as amanda. it noones fault that im in this situation so i dont what eather amanda or teddy to think it is their fault or anything im not mad or hurting im just loving them both and i will keep on doing it tell i die. by the way last night was amazing teddy i love you. well let get to what i did today sence i had the day off after school i went to see if i can get my check cashed but they didnt have money to cash it so i could not pay or take my phone in to get fixed so im phoneless which makes fiurging things out with amanda even harder well after that me and britt went back to her house to get something to eat sence i have been living off of grape juice and fruit snakes for about 3 days now. after that we went down to the river walk to walk and take picture but i didnt have any pictures left so we just walked and talk alot. then i went back to her house and at dinner with her and her family it was nice then i came home got online for a bit then pasted out i was so tired yeah so now im here i dont know why i did just stop writing and talk to teddy i need to i love talking to him and amanda both i hope in the end it turns out good.