As predicted. It's almost a mini war. Children vs. Pigs vs. Parents vs. Children. 'Course they don't want to believe that. i'll let them what they will. They deserve both. Sweets i've never lied to him, because he's better than that. Can "understand children", or see as much as he wants to. Minute you start tripping up, or he's got something/someone else, you'll be left. Babe i s'poze that's what he said. "Girl, when i left what'd you do?" "i...dunno? Found my Sweets?" "So now.." "Now?" "*sigh* You move on, pick someone else up, and carry on" Thing is, i can't do that. i attach myself to someone else the minute i think of losing them. That's where i trip up. i'm so worried about losing them, that when it happens i'm too fucked to do anything about it. i start regretting. Never get to do what we set out to. i understand partly, but have no idea where we stand in our little relationship. It's so unstable i can't really rely on much with him. i hope that one day he trips up, and i can't forgive him. Then i'd be able to yell at the pain to him. i want to figure it out. There'll alway be the hard times for other people, and i just want to be there for them. i'm too busy being tied up in my own thing, or acting disappointed, that it doesn't mean anything when i am. Hmm. Ethereal.