So it would've been good to have given thought to those who have their lives in shambles. i just can't be bothered finishing the letter and sending it. i can't be bothered starting a letter again to Robness. i don't think he cares 'much as i do, or what i say, or what i do, but he's made that decision. i knew this would happen, and i miss him. I miss his smell: A cross between chains and acetone and deodorant and machinery, but he smells so clean. Cool, clean, calm. Recently, my boyfriend has been released from jail for murder. Well, manslaughter. Mark and Axl (boyfriend) were held remanded in custody at Rimutaka Prison after beating Matt Madden 'til death. With their hands, like real men. The thing is, Matt Madden is alive and fine, and the lies throughout court cease to deliver resemblance to any truth whatsoever. They were in prison for 9 days, came out changed. More drugs. Less alcohol. More sex. More keeping of heads down. The boys are currently on bail, as of the 12th of Dec, until the 11th of Jan next year, where further investigation is carried out into the case. They were looking at 17yrs for murder. Then 10yrs for manslaughter. Then between 3months and 10yrs for GBH. Then between 3months and a few yrs for assault. Now they're off on bail until the rest of the world has calmed down, the 11th of Jan, to be re-sentenced. The conditions of bail are almost as bad as jail. Fuck this, i'll edit it later. There are so many boring stories to tell and so much to say. Mark had to re-visit court again yesterday for breaching bail. He got bail for breaching his bail. haha.