Emotions have always really been quite catchy for me. It's a good thing and a bad thing. i start to feel people on different levels, and it helps me put my shit aside to help someone else out. By just being there. A warm presence can mean everything. i need my own little place to escape to. Like everyone does. Dunno where to find it though. Never have really known. Sorta just became self-absorbed with drugs. i never found a way of properly dealing with shit because i found it difficult. And now i gotta move forward. Up and forward, and i don't know how. So i'm just gonna push myself towards something and just fucken do it. Because if i don't, i'll never better myself at anything but shoving something in my arm. Life is too short. The last 10years have felt like forever, yet gone so fast. i wish i could go be with people that love and appreciate me and get my feet firmly in the ground, happily. i'm gonna get there sometime soon. don't wanna start going backwards, now. do i?