Too fucked to beg and nto afraid to care

by fallwithregret
i am so stressed. i don't know why but i've been freaking out a lot lately. i've been getting what i want, and it's been good. i get fucked off when people provoke me, and a few minutes ago that happened. it kicks me out into a little dirt road trap and it's painful to not kill something. it's painful to feel such hate and fear and anger rise up in yourself. you choke on it. and the only way to get it out is by physical pain. it's somehow....transferred. but i dont punch shit. i dont stab shit. i just yell back, curse and cry. that's when i get left on the dirt road.
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aw that's how i feel right now.
like nothing's going right.
that i hate myself. that i hate life.

so yea in a way i can relate to what you're feeling right now.

and that feeling is there to stay...unfortunately.
I wish I could meet a guy and get laid. I need to have something happening in my life. I can't get on good footing with guys, other than as friends. LIfe sucks. Yeah, I can attest to that.
i've never ever experienced 80c p/l petrol. I live in new zealand of all places.
ahahahahaha. ok, Christchurch to be more specific
ya it will mean sex a lot of it.
Yes, I do boyfriends, but I don't have one right at this point. I have always have serious relationships that last for a year or more. I'm trying to get with a guy from my floor right no, but I don't think it will happen because he's the kind of guy who can't be read, and I don't know what he's thinking. for all I know he might hate me.