There isn't much here for me, or back home. i feel like an angry teenager all over again. -141008- i have the need to feel like i am high up someplace. Where, i am not sure. On top of rocks, just watching stuff. So close to clouds, and close by the sunset, in amongst a drunk river of equanimity, tranquility, serenity. The last few days have been a bore, though i must admit, i haven't tried to be too productive. Thinking about money doesn't solve the issue, which is why i have to grow up. Get off my ass, and put action to what i want to do, instead of always wanting and needing and wishing i had what i could have. i'm just sorry i spent two years of my vulnerable life on Axl. It got me happy, and made me do things i would only have imagined, in sweet dreams. It also made me a helluva lot more insecure about my decisions, so badly, that i don't even want to think about being happy. i was so destroyed, i am so destroyed. And devastated. It made me do things i only imagined in nightmares. But, this is life. This is what i've learnt, and continue to learn. And an idea, so much as a thought will get me to where i want to be. All i have to do is know that's what i want. i'm happy i've made my decision. i owe many thanks to R0bness, always. For the much needed support and shoulder to cry on. For all the good times we've had (i'm sure there'll be many more to come). And for telling me things always get better. Never to have regrets, life is what you make it. Xx This is mine.