Saw my Wanaka, at Queenstown, tomo going Tekapo Road to Christchurch, then Hanma and Picton, ferry back. i feel sick. It's the gut sick. i'm going out to light up soonly. Haven't properly written in a long time. i like knowing that some people just want me to be happy. Ya'know, as much as they aren't themselves, or even are, or as much as they lie to themselves, push things off the shelf, they just want me to be happy. i'm tired of trying to keep in touch with lilli. It doesn't fucken work. i've given up. Rob... meh. i really don't know what should be done, or i do, and i can't bring myself to it. Tom.. Just a good friend. Everyone else...... Fuck 'em. Goikng to spend time with the father when back in Wellytown. Hopefully get me some $$. There are far too many dope farms down here to have sell a tini $20.