The days are counting down before boarding school takes a hold of me, but i'm looking forward to it. At least i wont be able to see how much hurt and damage peopel want to do to me then. My mother is in Auckland for a funeral. Tonight she's going out with Rob and Franklet for drinks. She didn't mention staci. He has time for my mother, who wants to do as much damage to me as possible. He promised he'd look after me, and be on my side, if i wasn't in the complete wrong. He'd support me. But he'll just go out -without- staci, and have drinks with my mother, and Franklet. He wont give up an hour out of a month for me anymore. i'm just. just.. It's like losing Matt all over again, only whenever i still think of Matt leaving, it makes me cry. Why is this so bad? Meebe i'm just being melodramatic at the moment. i think so. On a much happier note: SIX MORE DAYS!