today i had a breadown.. but it wasnt that bad. lots of tears tho. ..well i was on the phone with james and i was upset cause he was having an amazin time.. and im stuck here.. and i came home from fl. to get away and have fun for once.. well im not at all. so i was kinda mad about that. cause i felt/feel left out. so when it was time for him to go i was pissed cause he got to go have fun and i was stuck in the house with my mom who was freaking out over nothing. so i started to cry. i called james back cause i never even said hardly a bye when we hung up. so i talked to him about my breakdown, he told me to jst relax and calm down and think of everything that was good now. (im so lucky to have him) so i listened to "our" song (a brighteyes song) and i went to sleep.. so im still upset cause i wont be able to see him till friday and hes having an amazing time while im here.. with mom.. joy