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by ix3brighteyes
I think I'm happy. It's freeing to not have someone holding you back from your full potential. I can go where I want, when I want and not have to call or make sure my phone is on. I don't feel guilty for devoting all my time to my friends. I can lavish in the fact guy like me for me, wether that be because I'm pretty to them or because I'm nice, and i dont have to feel guilty. I have my friends, my family and my car. I am set. I am accepted to college, and intend to live my life without having a full relationship to juggle as well. I have made a vow to myself. I will not have sex again untill marriage. I do not intend to regret anything again. It makes things more complicated and makes you feel like your married when your young. I hope to find the guy i want to marry before i get out of college, bbut if not hey that gives me more time to work on my career. I want to eventually be a photographer for the National Georgraphic. For now i am just going to have the greatest senior year i possibly can. I want to focus on my art after i get all my school suff out of the way. I want to be able to bring a ton of art pieces to college with me to show them im not a fake and i know what im doing. As much as it is freeing it still hurts to have the person you thought you were going to be with forever cheat on you and leave you for a 15 year old girl. Its just plain shocking. Im just waiting for him to call sometimes and beg me to fogive him for hurting me so much. Sorry to say but i will never be able to forgive him, nor will i ever be his friend. He can say it all he wants as long as he realizes hes a ass for hurting someone who cared for him deeply he should be able to move on. I hope he never has to be hurt as much as he hurt me, but if he does i hope its worse.
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I agree, sex complicates a relationship and makes it seem like marriage. You're too young for that. Enjoy being 18...it goes by fast. I didn't experience sex or my first serious relationship until I was almost 20 and I can honestly say it's much better to wait until you are ready. You've probably heard it before, but these really are the best years of your life and you shouldn't be forced to spend them with someone that won't let you be free.
I'm happy that you're happy. :]

I wouldn't necessarily say wait till marriage to have sex, but if that's what you want, then by all means. <3

You SHOULD enjoy life. :] That's all there is to it. Only do things that you wanna do, not do things because you -have- to, or something.
he'll probably call you regretting what happened between you, but i know that you'll be strong and not give him the benefit.

i know life never goes as planned, but sometimes i wish it did. i'm just really hurting right now and eric's the only one to actually care. its like how can you live in a place when no one actually notices you anymore.

hopefully i only have to be here one more year.
thank you, that was very nice of you.