I hate feeling like I'm not allowed to know things.
I hate when i can tell something is wrong and when i ask, they never tell you. I'm a very open person, so it bothers me when i ask a question and i don't get an answer. Especially when its not a big deal. Then i feel like a jerk for expecting people to be open with me, just as much i am with them. I feel like i expect too much of people. Maybe i do. Its not like i ask person questions, just "whats upsetting you?".
I do not like having things hidden from me.
i care so much about other people, that i automatically assume that i deserve to know everything. I do not know when i cross the line. Maybe i just expect to be a part of someones life, when i don't know them well enough. I don't know, am i expecting too much?
I don't mean to pry into peoples lives. I just share so much of my life with everyone. I have no secrets from anyone. I don't like secrets, they hurt and fester so i share mine with close people.
I care too much about him i think, i feel sad now when I'm not around him, or when hes upset about something. I feel like i need to be around him all the time now. I don't think thats a good thing at this point, its too soon. I have never just dated anyone, i was always in a relationship with them. Not that there were many relationships, only 2. But they were serious, so i don't know how to move slowly. It's difficult to now get so wrapped up in everything. I'm really trying. But i don't know how to not let myself get so entranced in this. I don't want to ruin things.
On a happier note, my senior trip is almost paid for. So i only have to make money now to use when i get down there. I;m so excited to go on the trip, i don't usually get to go on trips with my friends, so this should be amazing. This summer Marissa and Rachael and I are going to go to Canada for a few days. Were not going to drink or anything, just to travel and be outside of the county. I can't wait.
I'm a very happy person with life right now. This is probably the best I've felt in a long time. Maybe ever.
I'm not sure of your situation, however. Best of luck. <3