I have to refrain from hurting myself &in the end hurting other people. Like James, if I was to do that again. I promised so many people I wouldn't do that again &I DONT break promises. The only thing keeping me from doing it is James. I think about how I have to be strong so I don't hurt him. We both have too much pain to have this add more. So I will NOT do anything to harm myself. I will stay away from thins that are sharp or give me the idea of doing that. That part of my life is over &so should the thoughts &temptations of hurting myself when things become rough. It does nothing except cause hurt for other people who are close to me. I've come too far to turn around &ruin it. i WILL NOT cutt anymore.. ever.