Even after all this crap, I still choose to be with him; even after punching him in the face. And yes I really did punch him in the face, for reasons my own. But it weird to thin about if the same thing had been said to me about a year ago I would have been long gone. But I’m a bigger person, I’ve changed and grown and the stupidest thing is. He hasn’t been here to see it. I can truly say I’m nicer to people. There’s this kid at lunch and she’s irritating to the point where no one at the table likes her. But I’ve never said anything mean about her, just that her incisive talking is irritating. And this other kid, he’s mean and rude and racist and gross. And I got so mad at him I called him a "fag". Those are the only 2 things I’ve said in a while that were the slightest mean. I don’t degrade people like I used to, I don’t demean them or make them feel beneath me. I’m a bigger person then a lot of people and I’m not afraid of the things I used to be anymore. But when I was doing all this changing, he wasn’t here to see me do it. So when I showed him I am able to overcome the biggest and worst thing that has ever happened to me in my entire life, he was awestruck. I can grown and over come so much, but there is a limit to my awesomeness. So he’s about to the top. And if he doesn’t do something to reduce my irritation at him I’m not going to have the stamina to be strong and over come things. I freak out and leave. Even after al this hurt and anguish and punch to the temple, I still choose him and he can’t fathom why. It’s because right now, I’m not going to let him or Julia ruin my life. I choose him and his irritating and annoying things. I choose to overcome this crap and be the bigger person. I choose not to drive and find Julia and punch her square in the face; I choose to be supportive and right. I choose to make my life what I want and not let anything get in my way. I choose him; because right now if it wouldn’t piss off my entire family I would go and seriously marry him right now. Even after all the shit he’s put me through because he’s the one and only person I truly want to be with. I used to think we were the typical high school couple who end up breaking up when he goes to college. Well I’m still here waiting and growing. Because I had plenty of time to think about things. I Had time to realize that this isn’t the high school love crap. This is the true and real kind of love, not the cheesy shit you see in the movies. This is the kind where you grown and over come peoples stupidity for the sake of your happiness. And that’s what I’m doing because right after I graduate from college in 4 years, I will marry him. And this is the only thing I know I want. The only thing I am 100% sure of. The only thing I want more then anything. Him.