Alright. This is something that you need to hear. Its very hard for me to be honest with people. I apologize for that. The cling gets to me sometimes. People freak me out. I'm not used to being clung to. Nor am I used to so much attention. I dont say this to get attention. And it doesnt mean that I want you to show me so much attention because i missed out. its just something that im used to and it causes me to react with irritation. I'm sorry. And things have gotten worse since the thing between me and Kayla. The talking about it hurts the situation. Im terribly sore over it. And I'm sorry to say that I'm also very vindictive about it. Its just the way I am. The talking about Kayla coming back started the irritation and I didnt recover. And as for the Shadow Clan. Corie is right Mike. You focus all his attention on her. No matter whats going on. Almost every post revolves around Rose. Rose is like me. Cling and she'll push you away. Rose can't fair in those environments. So she freaked out. That wasnt the stabbing him thing. It was in her subconscious though. The Role Play is NOT PERSONAL. It has nothing to do with any sort of friendship between us. You are still one of my best friends. But you have to realize that how I RP is different from Real Life. THE RP IS SEPARATE. And you have to know that I'm not going to turn out like Carrie and the restraining orders and what not. I just need to breathe. You dont have to freak out every time I dont respond. It just means I'm busy or AIM is being a bitch. okay? And this doesnt mean to cut me completely off. Just lessen the hold a little okay? Okay.