Friday: 4/21- WASL again today. Math 2. Finished it pretty quickly. About 55 minutes in the 3 hour period we had to do it. Yeah I read "The Burning Stone" while I was waiting. Its actually a pretty good book. Its dry the first three-fourths of the book, but the rest is good. After WASL I was just sitting there so I grabbed the bathroom pass to take a walk. When I was walking back from the bathroom, my mom was sitting on the bench in front of the Office. She said she needed to talk to me. And to go get my stuff from class, that I'm going home. I thought it was about Sean so I ran all the way back to class, grabbed my stuff and ran all the way back. When I got there my mom said something about the poem left in my bathroom. I was cleaning my bathroom the previous night, and I found a poem I wrote so I left it on my counter cause I had more to clean. It was my "You've Ruined Your Little Girl" poem. The one I posted last on Poems in the Shadow Clan. My mom was just crying and saying that she's sorry that she wasn't there to be a mother when I was a kid and all this crap about how she's jealous of my relationship with my Bakka. And stuff like that. Afterwards it just got very silent. And now we're going to family councelling. This is none of Cayce's business in my opinion. He can go to hell for all I care. Then she let me get online for 2 hours. Saturday: 4/22- LE BORED!! AH!! I had to sit at home all day doing nothing until 7. My mom said I could go online for 2 hours because she was feeling bad because I had nothing to do. Thank you mom. Cayce and his friend Brett went to some guys house for a party. Ed Herman or something. He's the red haired guy on Ultimate Fighter 3. Yeah. It was odd. Brett started a fight. Bad move my friend. I feel bad. I got in a fight with Garrett. I'm sick of him being so god damned cryptic with me. When I ask you how you are, I dont want to be told "Alive" When I ask whats wrong I dont want to hear "Life". He knows that pisses me off. And it hurts that he doesn't trust me enough to tell me these things. So, I finally blew and yelled at him. I said that I was sick of him not telling me truthfully. And that I actually care about how he's doing even if he doesn't care about me. He then told me that he doesn't care. That just killed me. Michael told me I should give up on him. I think I am. Whatever. Hopefully, his friend Jennifer will be better for him. I pray for her sake. I wrote him a letter too. I put my heart and soul into that letter and I was seriously thinking about emailing it to him. But, now, I'm deleting it. Amanda says I shouldn't delete it. She says its cute. I have to delete it, cause everytime I see it, I cry. Sunday: 4/23- Today is Skye's birthday. She's not having a party though. I don't know why. Mom hasn't talked to the family councellor yet. She forgot to call. Oh well. Mom's also decided to bring Skye with us to family councelling. This morning, since I had nothing to do I started making invitations to my party. Elizabeth and Cecilia aren't coming because they are pissing me off to no end. I'm not inviting Stephanie because she's being a whore towards Jeni. I really don't feel like explaining it. Then, half way through the invitation making, Amanda calls. We talk for awhile, then my mom, Cayce, Me, Skye and Sean all walk down to Starbucks. I got to push Sean on the way there, Cayce pushed him on the way back. I got a Caramel Frappacino. Nummy. Then I talked to Amanda again and went to her house. We sat around and talked. I cried. We were speaking of my cousin Devan and how she's being brought up the way I was. I dont want her to be like me. My childhood sucked. She has nothing to look forward to if she keeps it this way.