Well, there's most likely gonna be an SC gathering 5 years from now. And AFR brought up the question. "Where do you see yourself in 5 years?" I dont know why, but my stomach sort of twists when asked that question. I see myself in college of course. But if you really think about it. I mean seriously think about it. You wonder "what'll happen between know and then?" I'll probably be seriously hurt seeing as how I fight so much. And we all plan on staying in contact. Kat said she wont let us go without a fight. And I agree so much with that. As AFR said, the situation is different for everyone. Things happen, people change. The second hand is ticking and its taking away time we'll never get back. No matter how much we want it back. Its kinda hard to think about. It may not seem like it but two tiny words, what if, can make such big ideas. What if: I gave up the SC? Will there every be something that big to make me do so? What if: I die? What would I die from? Would I die peacefully in my sleep? from a disease? Someone killing me? The death penalty? Its all so confusing. Its like when you try and think of how big the universe is. Or how long infinity is. Its all so big. Bigger than any of us. And its hard to think that far. But sometimes you have to. Sometimes its for the better. You may never know what will happen in the next second. It is possible that within the next five minutes, you could be killed. You could be proposed to, eaten alive, experience a life altering situation. And you would have never seen it coming. I dont know exactly how to explain all of this. I understand it perfectly, but I'm not sure how to explain it to where you would all know what I meant.