A lot has happened. Brandons new court date is the 8th of september. 2 days after I start school.*sighs* I had the dream again. Only, it was different. I also started something again. Something I didnt want to do. And now all my friends are worried about me, my moms threatening Kolob Canyon and a lot of people are watching me. Monitoring me I guess. Caleb hasnt left my house yet. He stayed the night. Mom made him sleep on the couch. I've known Caleb for 8 years now. He's also my new boyfriend. He's never left the house. He's been here for a day or two now. He's eating lunch at this very moment. Anyways... I need help. I mean serious help. Dr.Snaivley, my therapist, cant do anything for me now. I'm the type of person who sits in therapy giving a one word answer or doesnt say anything at all. I cant go back to Kolob Canyon but if worst comes to worst, I'll have to. Even though it could mean losing everything I know. Its a risk I'll have to take when the time comes. *sighs yet again* I havent seen Brandon thank the gods. I wouldnt be able to go near him. Shadow, a friend of mine from an RPG, said its like Ion come to life. And I agree. I totally agree with that. And its scary that it would happen. No one deserves this. I wouldnt wish this on Brieanne. But it happened. We cannot change the past no matter how much we dislike it. I love that line. It makes perfect sense.