I woke up at 2:49 am this morning because of the nightmare again. Crying and sweating as usual. I couldnt sleep all day. I was too afraid to go back to sleep. Skye's been sleeping in my room on the floor as of late. She's afraid that Brandon will try to sneak into my room. I'm scared of him now. First I was kinda numb to it. Then I was pissed off. And now I'm scared. I find that pretty weird. I wish I was numb to it again. I dont like being scared of him. My mom asked me why I was afraid of him. And honestly, I dont truly know anymore. I think its because I know that he could probably do what he did again. And I am truly scared for him to get farther than he already did. I freak out any time someone mentions him. I think thats pathetic. I shouldnt be afraid of him. He's not scary. Its what he does thats scary. Someone make all this go away please. I'm begging you. This is ruining everything. I'm going to Sams party tomorrow but I'm not doing anything at the water park. I'm going to sit at the table and listen to music. Maybe write somemore poetry. I've been working on all my stories as of late too. I started a new one too. I think its doing exceptionally well so far. I might post it on the site. I dont know yet. Its kinda about the 5th Generation SC. But, I dont think I will. I might change a few things about it. Illusions will be updated soon enough though. I finished it off, I just have to post it. I might post my stories on here too. Although some people wont get them because they arent part of the SC. But its a fun RPG. Heh, AFR made up a name for if it was a soap opera. Seeing as its damn close enough. It would be called "Demons Of Our Lives". Everyone laughed about that.