I feel weak in the knees... My ex...Brandon...He's back. He called me last night while I was online. He called on the house phone. He doesnt have my line. I'm kinda glad. But he called. He sounded a bit nervous. And then, he asked me out again. I dropped the phone and ran to the bathroom. I puked. I really did. I puked. Thank god that he hung up. I dont know what I would've said. How do you say "No you fucking asshole" nicely? *Sighs* I didnt see him today. I didnt get to say no. I didn't go to the musical because I would've had to go alone. I dont know where he thought he had an opening. I only talk to him in Gym, Block, and Environmental Club. And its just random chatting. Nothing really important. I guess he thought that was me saying "Hey I like you, wanna go out?" but no. That was me being nice. I won't talk to him outside of school. I havent spoken with him on the phone since the last time he called when I got the restraining order. Its not good...Not good at all...I wont be able to put up with this again. I already have too much shit on my plate. I just hope I get out of this alive and untouched.