Hi. I feel totally numb to all emotions actually. I don't feel sad or happy or anything even though I know I am sad. But that's okay. Don't really care. Those people that hate me can...some people care and that's all that matters. Teresa is awesome. She took me to get chinese and take my mind off everything. It was good food too. I sorta wish I could feel sad right now. It's weird to be crying and not know why...hm....I feel brain dead too. It's weird. I dunno but I think I let myself fall for Scott. That was a hole I spent the last couple of hours digging myself out of. But I don't like him anymore. I'm trying not to like anyone. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore. I like my friends. In fact I love them. I just wish people didn't love me because I know I will just end up hurting them. Oh well...this sucks.