I hate myself. That's why I feel hateful. I screw everything up. I always do. Why don't I just die. I won't kill myself but still. I've screwed up enough things in my life and in other people's lives. I hate me. Another thing gone down the drain. I'm trying not to cry. I don't want things messed between Liz and Scott. But I messed it up. I totally screwed up. Like usual. I suck. Totally and completely. I love my friends. They are the best but I always mess things up for them. DAMN ME!!!! I hope I go to hell!!!