I was reading Amy's journal because she has it set up so her friends can read it. It's odd to think how distanced we are. I'm like sitting here crying because I'm lame and it makes me miss her so much more. LAMENESS!!! Then I got to her old entries before she made it a totally private journal...when she was mad at me for "fucking things up between Scott and Liz"(that's a quote) and talking crap about her behind her back. I wonder how much people say I talk about other people. Because I don't. It's stupid. And I love Amy. I could never -ever- talk crap about her. And I'm sitting here crying even more. I hate my computer being in the kitchen. Then everyone can see me cry. AGH! I hate crying...at least in front of people. I miss my Amy so much. I am so glad she's coming. I hope she isn't mad at me. I don't think she is but who knows. Even if Amy hated me I would still love her which is pathetic. She is probably the person I love most in the entire fricking world. I'm lame like this. My journal is shallow and repetitive. Wow. It turns out a lot of people told Amy I was talking crap about her. How lame. THey are effing retards because I could never do that. I want to know who. WHO?!? I am SOOO lame. I'm sitting here bawling and my little brother walked through and asked why I was crying. I said I got a sad e-mail.....psh. Let's see Bonnie said I talked crap about Amy...I wonder who else. I miss my Liz too. Stupid Liz going to Mexico. I hope she is having a rad time. Yeah. I'll stop. I miss all my friends. Amy-in PA Liz-in Mexico Nicole-*shrugs* Kendall-*shrugs* Whitney-EFY Erin-in PA Anna-no idea... blah blah blah I'm stopping remember!!!!!!