My head hurts. I'm crazy. The news is on. I'm ready to go home. I miss my friends. My birthday is coming in 4 days...it just makes me miss my friends even more. The idea of spending my birthday at home alone is so horrifying that I asked Lexi what she was doing Monday and told her she ought to give me a call if it was nothing. I can't really tell if she is my friend or she just feels sorry for me. Sometimes I wonder if everyone just hangs out with me because they feel sorry for me because I'm "the new girl". Things are so stupid here. It's sad. I hate being new. I hate no knowing lots of people. I hate people being my friend for not real reasons. For plastic reasons. It's so sad. I hate it. I really do. I have all of four "friends". Lexi-she's really funny and hyper and fun. She's also sorta a drama queen which is annoying. Oh well. Brittany-probably my closest friend here. She's really cool and we're splitting a babysitting job and everything. If most people saw her they would think "slut" but she totally isn't. She's a good kid. Abby-she is awesome. She's friends with Lexi, but I feel really comfy around her and I can be totally sarcastic with her and all. She's a huge spaz and everything too. Cassie-she lives by me(like Brit)and I don't really see her that much. She's cool and all though. Okay. Alright. I don't really know what to say now. I'm pretty depressed and all here. I mean, yeah it's alright but I want to go home and I miss all of you guys and I dunno. It's weird being away. Oh well. 362 days(tops)left of being here. I'm coming home eventually.