Haha, Whitney thinks this sounds like a stripper song and I guess if you concetrate really hard it does....meh. I am gonna miss her so bad when I move. I am gonna miss everyone. I'm still gonna miss Amy and I'll miss Teresa tons because she's moving before me. And I'll miss Erin and I'll miss Anna, even though I haven't talked to her in 5 years because of the whole moving thing and addresses getting lost and me being immature. I sure hope that doesn't ever happen with Amy. I'm so glad I have MSN. I'm so glad I'm not 8 years old anymore. This whole moving thing seems really unreal. It has for the last couple of people moving too. It's like oh, they're moving. I'm sad...I think. And then the day of/the day after, I'm like oh man, they moved...Then I spend the entire day hiding, or at least trying to do that. I miss Christa like crazy and I'm gonna miss everyone soo bad and I have no clue what I am gonna do in Ohio....I'm so scared of that place. Everything there is so unknown and I hate change. I didn't used to. I didn't care last time I moved...I didn't cry. I didn't used to cry at all. Now it feels like I cry all the time. There is always a reason to cry now...meh. And when I think about Ohio, I think I'm moving there, well that's weird and cool and probably a good thing so I can make sure that I really am as tight with my friends as I say I am. But I'm so scared when I really think about it. What if I don't want to or get to come back or I don't make friends or blah blah blah. I really don't make friends too easily. It doesn't seem real right now. It seems like I'm going to visit or something, like I'll be back soon but I won't. I miss Anna -so- bad. I think about her so much now. I wish I hadn't been so immature and lost her number, her address, lost contact with her. I wish we had been smart enough to exchange e-mail addresses. I wish that we both didn't move so much. My address has changed 3 times since the last time she wrote me. I took the return address and wrote to it, but the letter got returned. She doesn't live there anymore. I wonder how she is and if she is the same person she was. I miss Jennifer and Alison too. I've had so many babysitters named Jen. Jen was so cool and I do have her address but now, she is in vet school and I doubt she even remembers me, the little girl who liked to have her toe nails painted and talked to her birds...I lived down the street. She was the coolest girl ever and she was so sweet. My eyes are burning just thinking about my old friends and moving and all that jazz. Dang it... Sometimes I wonder what it would have been like if I had been the same age as some of these people. Somehow I've always managed to have some really good friends that are my brother's age. First Anna, who was my best friend and now Teresa and Scott and Craig and a lot of other people. It's weird to think what it would be like if I was 16 too instead of being 14 year old, freshman me. I love having friends older than me. I dunno why but they seem so much more composed sometimes and not so whishy-washy. They aren't all "my boyfriend broke up with me so now I'm gonna make him jealous and never drop the subject." They get over stuff, they don't hold grudges, they don't get mad at me because I "stole" the guy they like...I love my friends though. Gosh, I'm sure I bored all of you to death. Sorry but this is my journal so nah!!!:P I like my journal sometimes even if it's usually shallow, slow, boring, and whatever else it is...