Everything feels really odd. I'm not sure what it is. My emotions are so mixed. I hand wrote a journal entry last night and I was gonna put it in here. But I changed my mind. So it will sit in my binder, with my poetry and such. I was online at 11 last night. I snuck on. Scott was on. I had to type really slow so that I didn't get caught. I almost did still...I got off at 11:30 and crept upstairs. Then I finished reading the Lost World. It was sorta a dumb book. It made me angry and bored. I was up at like 2. I finished my book at 1:30ish. I was lying there thinking. They weren't happy thoughts either. Stupid me. I felt so emo. --------------------- 12:18 PM I've been having random tears lately. Whenever I read Teresa's or Scott's journals, when I think about moving, and such. I dunno why. I feel stupid. I feel like a total moron. I suck at dealing with stuff like this. I suck sometimes. I hate not being happy. Shouldn't I be happy? Amy's coming in 9 hours.... --------------------- 12:28 PM Chambers makes me feel stupid. I don't really know why. I know I get on his nerves a lot when I'm sad. What can I say...as of late, I have been a super-sad emo child. Liz is now pissed at me. Just because when Scott gave me a hug, I typed *doesn't want hug* because even the idea of being touched bothered me. He took it personally, she took it personally. I'm so messed up. Seriously. Some days I'm happy, some days I'm not. Ususally I get online because I am -not- happy. So I'm sorry if I piss all of you off. Goodness. Maybe you just won't have to deal with me anymore. After all. I'm gone all of July and after than...I have like 30 days of the way I'm living left.