I begged I pleaded I crawled back on my hands and knees Reaching for him From his lofty tower He looked down upon me Light shone from his face Illuminating my darkness He smiled I cryed His hand took mine And I could stand Bathing in his light Cleansing in him Wounds bled Then scabbed Feelings still sore Eventually healing Needing him so much I could not walk Wanting him so much I could not think Wishing for him to feel the same I am but mere putty in his hands He can have me as he wishes I am only grateful to be accepted by him Welcomed in his embrace The small dark child curled In the arms of the great light beast Feeling protected And loved Every touch given Only leaves me impatiently waiting For the next Hoping he cared about me As much as I do him Stupidity leads me into love Happily ignorant The days that left me in darkness Are to painful to forget Valuable lessons Inevitably end in pain Only the people who love us Can give us light As I lay in the void Staring up into black Feeling it all around me I became numb to all but sadness I saw few slightly illuminated passersby I reached out And they did not see me Letting the cold fingers of depression Caress my frozen body Letting the cold one wrap itself around me Freezing my heart Violating my icy body and mind Hoping Reaching Pleading for warmth For the light to fall upon me Melting the ice Burning me Letting my heart and soul Ignite the fire Hopeless Helpless Loveless Lifeless Not moving Not thinking Not feeling Not trying to find another Never knowing what may happen Waiting for the truth For the love For him. Stupid yes. Happy yes. Helpless yes. Only wanting to be alright. To be safe. To feel the burning pulse of love. Not the icy fingers of hate and sadness. To his whims I obey. Only wanting to be with him. in the name of being hopelessly addicted...