I lost my happiness The happiness that often blessed me Is now haunting me The smiles and laughs The warmth I lost it all All my joy is missing In losing it I lost myself In the ashen void The emmpty nothingness The cuts on my arms These do not push me into sadness But deeper into nothing I shed tears I cry for myself But I am not sad Just unfeeling Am I nothing? In this great nothing That I am in The deafening and silent gray Cut me make me bleed Force color and emotion into my life I know I love I know I am loved But why cant I feel? * kill me now let the angels take me forget the pain forget the memories forget me * Stuck inside I try to reach out But I am no longer In control Of my own body * The tears I cry Are not for you But for myself Selfish me * My soul is full of words that make me want to Stop thinking * I am yours In every sense of the word * DONT LEAVE ME ALONE! ... in the name of being lost...